Perfectly imperfect

I recently spent one Saturday afternoon getting all crafty with our niece, Amber-Lee. We pulled out all my paint, paintbrushes, paper and little wooden trinkets, boxes and baskets, all longing for a splash of colour. I’ve been meaning to get back into it all, so I was quite excited to get all crafty with Amber-Lee.   

 
I chose a simple wooden basket to paint (pictured above, painted). Once I had chosen my colour, I began painting. And shortly after, I began to regret choosing to paint this particular basket. It was exceedingly difficult to get my paintbrush into all the little grooves and gaps. And I really wanted the entire basket painted. I didn’t want to leave any parts unpainted – no light brown anywhere. Just pretty blue. I got even more frustrated when I started painting close to the top, where the wire frame is. How on earth was I gonna keep that free of paint? Tape wouldn’t work – too small. So, what? 

  

I almost decided to give up. Almost. After spending a few minutes staring at this impossible basket to paint, I was reminded of some things. I was reminded that I was only human. Not perfect at all. So why was I trying to paint my basket perfectly? Does it even need to be painted perfectly? It’s my basket. I’m keeping it for me. As long as I’m happy with it, that’s all that matters. Once I started thinking about this, my frustration left me. That’s when I decided to add another colour, and I didn’t worry about keeping the metal frame paint-free. While I was painting more freely, I started thinking more about perfection. I started looking at my life. Was I the perfect wife? No! Was I the perfect mother? No! Was I the perfect daughter/sister/friend? No! But I realized that it’s ok not to be perfect. I’m only human. There are days when I snap at my husband and son unnecessarily. Sometimes, I don’t feel like being around other people. Some days, I just want to be in my little bubble. My life is not perfect. I have my struggles. Things frustrate me. Finances are tight. But that’s ok. 

I’ve realized my life is perfect in its imperfections. There are some things that are perfect in my eyes – I just need to look at my sons sweet little face to see my perfection. Do we have our dream car; are we living in our dream home? Nope. But if our little car, that has seen better days, could talk, it would tell you of many adventures. It would tell you all about our trip from Cape Town to Jeffrey’s Bay, and the week we spent making our way back home, for our honeymoon. It would tell you about being packed too the brim and driving us to Durban, from Cape Town, so we could start our new life. Never mind all the adventures that were packed into those 2 days of traveling! Perfectly imperfect. 

Our little home is small and cosy. And while we are quickly outgrowing it, what with a toddler running around, this home will always be special. This will always be the home we brought Noah home too for the first time, all those months ago. We’ve managed to fit a lot more furniture in our home than we thought possible. We’ve moved things around and rearranged and gotten rid of many things. Mainly to make space for all things baby related. And while there are times when a second bedroom would come in handy, this little home is ours, and it is perfect for us for now. 

Every time I look at my little painted basket, I’m reminded that while there are many imperfections in life, there are moments and memories and people, who make my imperfect life feel perfect, even just for a moment. 

Xoxo
*All photos are my own*

A lot can happen in one year…

A week ago I celebrated my 31st birthday. I was talking to my mom in the evening, just chatting about my day, how it was, what we did etc. And she reminded me about my birthday last year. Just one year ago, I turned 30. I was not a mom yet. We had a picnic at the Botanical Gardens. Family came from Cape Town to celebrate. Close friends joined in the festivities. It was an awesome birthday weekend. 

But it was just Jason and I. Being a mom was still just a distant dream. I knew I wanted to be a mom. But I didn’t know when it would happen. Fast forward just 366 days (remember the leap year 😉), and I celebrated my 31st birthday with a gorgeous little toddler running around. I woke up to his smiling face on my birthday. 

That was one of the best gifts ever. Seeing his sweet little face. Watching him wobble as he tries to walk everywhere. Watching him love his new found independence. Getting love and cuddles from him. No kisses though – my boy only kisses his own photo or reflection in the mirror! If mom wants a kiss, she gets the forehead! But that’s ok. Because for this birthday, I was Mommy to the most handsome little 13 month old I know. He only started saying mama 2 days after my birthday, but I know that even though he struggles to say mama, in his heart, and in his eyes, I am mama. That alone, made this possibly the best birthday ever! 

If someone had told me when I turned 30 that I’d have a toddler when I turned 31, I would have laughed at you. I wouldn’t have believed you. But a lot can happen in a year. And I am so glad that everything that has happened, happened. Life has changed a lot. And there is not a thing I would change! 

Thank you, mom, for the reminder! 

At the rugby – Sharks vs Lions!

*Photos are my own. 

21 Days of Awesomeness…take 2!

I started off really well with the last 21 Days of Awesomeness. My goal was to work on my blog everyday…be it posting a new post, working on future posts, making my blog look prettier. But then, my husband and my baby both got sick within a week of each other, and that was my challenge done. 

I was so excited to see, just a few weeks later, that the lovely GI Jane had scheduled another 21 Days of Awesomeness, starting tomorrow, 4 April. I knew I wanted to challenge myself to work on my blog again. But I felt like I needed a few more challenges too. So here are the things I’d like to do everyday, for the next 21 days, starting tomorrow, in the hopes of making it a habit:

1.) Work on my blog everyday – posting new posts, planning future posts, working on the style and layout of my blog

2.) Read my Bible everyday – I’ve been slack with this, and really want to get back into reading my Bible. My faith is so important to me, and I want to make this a priority in my life again. 

3.) Squats – I haven’t done any excercise since we got Noah, and I have really wanted to get back into some form of something physical. So I thought I’d start with squats every day!

4.) Wall push-ups – when I was training with my favourite trainer last year this was one of the excercises she made us do regularly. And it killed my arms. I feel like a good balance in excercises is ideal, and seeing as I’m squatting, I needed to do something with my arms too…so wall push-ups it is!

I feel like I may be biting off a little more than I can chew. Yes, it coincides with me starting a new job for the next 2 months. Yes, I shall be a working mom, for the first time…how am I going to cope, trying to balance it all? But…I am up for the challenge! I’m excited about it!

Would you like to join in on the 21 Days of Awesomeness challenge? You’re welcome to find out more and join here.

Here’s to forming new, good, healthy habits! 

*Image source: GI Jane SA